15 August 2006
I saw Yuki and Ivan yesterday in Cesate, they invited me for lunch. From my part there is a special feeling for Yuki, because her words are able to give me new energy. She is in the flow of my story, indipendently of she herself intentions.
Yuki is a japanese professional go player. I new her one year later i started to learn go. So it was 2001. I was very happy to meet her, because i was used to have a master and to work together alive.
There is a japanese expression for it: shin shin, hart to hart pupil/master relationship, and i like it very much. She came back to japan last year, and my go story became harder after that. I’m 57 years old, my brain is stiff, mi hart is cold…
Before she left, she rejected me as pupil, because she was not able to find a way to make me find a center. The problem was: i could not make my go knowledges to work together in a game. Nonsense to continue like this, if I could not wake up my “operations center” and put it at work.
This remark was in her style, she already cutted off my head with katana. But beside the style, that meant that she could see deeply inside my inconscious structure just playing go with me. Beside the pain because her decision, again it was evident that for a Master his art is correlated with the source of knowledge. So i’m glad for her and for me: Yuki is a Master.
In despite of this sudden break on our relationship, yesterday we could speak together very friendly. She confirmed that i was in the 99% group of people non-talented for go, and after an exchange of experiences about cultivation of fines herbes on terraces, she asked me to play her on a move-by-move server, so we could chat waiting our next meeting.
Difficult to explain, but this gave me new energy to continue to study go, and gods know how much i needed it.
